Love Yourself

Learning to be happy by yourself is so important. I remember going through stuff and reaching out to friends and family and not getting a response. I remember lonely nights of crying myself to sleep. At the end of the day all you have is yourself and God. Recently I fell out of love with myself. I depended on a guy to show me my worth. He said all the right things but his actions never showed it, or he did the bare minimum. I accepted that. I accepted it because I didn't want to be AS lonely...but I still was. At night, when I woke up, when I hung out with friends, when I was with family, at the end of the day all I had was myself. I then realized that no one has my back like me. The only person that's always there is me. You have to become your own bestfriend. I treat myself to trips and shopping sprees. I spoil myself, that way I don't look to others to do it. If I found someone else to do so, it would only be a plus. I take pride in being independent. When I talk to guys that's one thing they always say they admire about me. Im a communicator, but I always say that I'm a loner, not in a bad way, but I appreciate alone time. I get my best thinking and planning done. I let God show me things that are meant for me and me only. I can't tell you how many talks I've had about my purpose and goals and how many people shut them down, because they don't get it. Which is cool, it's not their vision to see. It's ok to be selfish sometimes. One thing about me is that I always try to help others, but I make sure I'm good first. At the end of the day I work hard, and have the same 24 hours as everyone else. There's only so much you can do for  others. They have to want to help themselves. It starts with Loving yourself enough to know that a certain person isn't for you, or that you're limiting yourself by settling for this job, or that you aren't using your God given talents. You gotta take care of yourself sometimes in order to help others. I'm a work in progress so I don't mind sharing my experiences and bad decisions to help others, because I'm aware of my problem and I'm willing to fix it. At the end of the day I love myself enough to know that I need to change so I can help other people. And when you accept it, and work on being happy, suddenly certain things don't bother you. I remember being so indulged into myself that I was selfish with myself. I didn't just talk to anybody. You had to prove yourself to me. It's ok to have standards cause at the end of the day you have to deal with the reprocautions of your decisions, which is why loving yourself is important. Know your worth, don't settle for less, and understand when enough is enough. You choose to be happy.